To Her
My beautiful & demure diary
I dedicate
My ink thoughts and feelings
Dear blog,
Forgive me for leaving you in idleness for the past 8 days. It pains me a great deal to see you like that..
Fear not, for the heroin has finally arrived in a dash of great glorious white light with a mission to free you from misery. And from now on you shall painth no more…
~Serene~
Hehe…I finally got some time to chill here. The past week was not exactly fun with new death threats (tengoklah nanti!) everyday but it was not exactly that miserable either especially from Thursday onwards. And thank you, Kenny, Sha and Aizad for planning for outings and movie at Midvalley and Hartamas. Those times really brighten up a “lifeless” week in college.
“Lifeless” 
because my precious time was spent on some things that people don’t really appreciate, even myself. It’s not that I want appreciation or honour for the things that I do but what is the purpose of spending time typing minutes when it was just done for the sake of doing it. What a lot of people don’t really understand is that time is a factor and I could have channeled my time for more purposeful and exciting tasks around. Minutes are so rigid and most of the time, they are just like the Da Vinci- the greatest “cover-up of the mankind”. Emotionless and crap. Besides, people don’t really care much about the minutes anyway. It’s just plain boring? Get what I mean people??!
… I hate to say the word “hate”. I rarely used it.
In fact, it was never used in my blog before. Why do you think I dislike using this word so much? Have you ever heard of people saying, “I hate accounting” or “I hate Dota” when they fail to perform in those things?
You cannot say you hate something when you cannot do it at that time. It’s like emotionally giving up when it is said. Plus, it’s a a very strong word to describe bitterness. I personally made it a point to refrain from using it. Whatever that assails me, is a challenge to be overcome and I am not giving up so easily.
Today, there is an exception here, a slight bend of policy
………..à I absolutely, totally, completely, utterly HATE 
sitting in front of my laptop- typing minutes! Well, minutes are soooo easy to do. And that is the problem, no challenge = boring.
I think blogging, playing with adobe or reading is much better. 
My whole bookrack is possibly infested with red ants now. To my bewilderment, red ants were crawling my thighs when I took out Harry Potter to read awhile. Ants everywhere in the pages and they were weaving in and out the pages.
It was a disgusting and creepy sight.
Apart from that, things have been going haywire with me for the past few days. Thankfully I am still very much in control of myself. Some things that require some guts to do… and I am yet to find it. I was (still am) afraid, afraid of many things, afraid of the unknown, afraid of the consequences, afraid of screwing up….
8a.m
12 p.m.
3p.m -Exact same effect in prisons for those facing lifelong imprisonments. *pity, pity*- Snape style-
